/ Ksenia Sidorova / Photo story

I hate you too

I met K., a girl whose childhood is usually considered difficult: an incomplete family, a lack of understanding of relatives and peers. Now she is 19 year old and her body is covered with tattoos and, perhaps, even more than I saw her last time. I hate you too – this is the tattoo phrase that K. wears on her forehead.

Faced with permanent misunderstandings, it is difficult for a person to break out of the vicious circle of forced alienation. Cardinal external changes are one of the methods to compensate for an inner conflict. Aggressive reaction of the society to this difference gives impetus for a new transformation of the person. The need for consolation generates an idea of creating a new body. The process of “self-improvement” becomes endless. The desire to stand out does not solve the main problem – to understand oneself – and may worsen the inner emptiness that may turn against oneself. So is it possible for us to reconcile with ourselves and with the world?

This series presents photographs in which I model situations of misunderstanding and distortion arising in individual society—inner world relationship: between concealment and deliberate demonstration, isolation and inclusion, family and solitude, the permanent and the temporary.

Ksenia Sidorova (1983) works and lives in Moscow. She has studied photography at various courses, such as FotoDepartament and DocDocDoc in St.Petersburg. Her works have been published in Dodho, Colta.ru, Bird in Flight Magazine and others.